In The White Light of Grace, author and lecturer Lillie Leonardi shares the stories of her life, beginning with the ancestral origins of her intuitive gifts and the early childhood experiences that uncover her ability to communicate with angels. The book traces life-altering events, times when she called on the angels for blessings and others when she learned how to rely on herself. Throughout, her revelations about love, loss, and healing unfold. Her remarkable stories focus on her personal transformations, as well as the incredible experiences of those around her.


Chapter 1: The Origins of Grace

Since my earliest recollections, I have been graced by the white light from heaven above. Although for many years I did not understand what a blessed life I have lived, I have come to comprehend it now. At the age of 16, I first began my relationship with Mary. Our alliance was forged after my mother gifted me with a small prayer book to honor Our Lady of Perpetual Help. Over the years, this strong bond has aided me in better understanding my spiritual path and purpose. Through it, I learned to accept that life has many mysteries that do not always allow for an explanation or even make sense. Sometimes, there seem to be no clear reasons for what transpires. However, I now believe that the answers to all questions are ever-present—that is, if we are willing to listen to the inner wisdom of our souls.

This amazing bond with Mother Mary was not, however, the initial spiritual connection I felt with the heavenly realm. As a child, I felt the magnificent presence of the Archangel Michael, and often confided this belief in others. When first I told my parents about the encounters, my mother said they were just a part of my “overactive imagination.” She would often berate me and caution me not to share the details of the angelic encounters with others. In her own way, Mom was trying to protect me, but I felt she had somehow betrayed me as well. For in my mind, I knew what I professed about the Archangel to be true. When Archangel Michael would appear in the corner of my bedroom, I would instantly feel the warmth of his being. In turn, I would feel an inner connection to him and the illumination of my soul.

Chapter 2: First Holy Communion

My initial recollection of sensing the presence of my guardian angel was during the church ceremony of my first Holy Communion. When I approached the bishop and he extended his hand toward me, I opened my mouth to receive the host. I heard my shaky voice utter the word, “Amen.”

I then turned to march across the front of the altar and down the side aisle. At that moment, my mind became confused and I hesitated. All of a sudden, I heard a dulcet voice whisper, “Turn this way.”

With the words softly echoing in my ear, my entire being became warm. Then it felt as if an invisible hand was placed upon my shoulder gently guiding me in the appropriate direction. With that touch, my whole body became electrified with a wonderful energy. At that point in my life, I was unaware that this was the magic of an angel’s touch. Yet despite my childhood naiveté, I was somehow astute enough to truly comprehend that I had experienced divine intervention.

Chapter 3: A Child Within A Child

My lovely daughter started her life with some heavy weights to bear. Her birth was not much of a celebrated event. It was the early 1970s, and unwed pregnancies were far less common than they are today. At the time, most expectant teenagers were hidden away in disgrace, sent away to a distant relative until an adoption could be arranged, or pressured to marry the father. On top of this, the Catholic Church frowned upon premarital sex. In my case, its rebuke was swift, severe, and unmerciful. I had to spend several hours in front of priests and nuns, listening to how my actions were going to send me straight down into hellfire. Their words left a mark that made me feel tainted for many years to come. I felt branded in shame.

When I tell you that I knew the very moment Vanessa was conceived, believe me: it is a fact. Despite the limited knowledge of sex and my own reproductive system, I felt an instantaneous link to the universe when I became pregnant. It is a sensation of interconnectedness I find hard to describe. Over the years, I have heard many women indicate they, too, could feel life in their womb at the moment of conception. As the baby began to grow inside of me, I felt an immediate bond with her. Despite the negative judgments of church leaders and the emotional outbursts from my family members I had to endure, my heart was filled with love for that little girl growing inside my womb.

The White Light of Grace

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Former law enforcement professional Lillie Leonardi always lived with her feet planted in two separate worlds-the metaphysical and the physical. In the Shadow of a Badge, takes readers on a dramatic journey of what happens when Leonardi’s two very distinct realities become dangerously intertwined.

During her work at the crash site of Flight 93 in Shanksville, Pennsylvania, surrounding the fateful events of September 11th, Leonardi is forced to confront her connection to the divine-something she has struggled with since her youth. Her gripping personal account of the 12 days she spent acting as an FBI liaison between the law enforcement and social service agencies carries readers into a world that combines the factual and logistical with the angelic and mystical.

After witnessing what she describes as a “legion of angels” during her first minutes at the crash site, Leonardi must finally reconcile the opposing sides of her life. Through her diagnosis of Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder, experience the guilt and fear that grip her, and witness the remarkable transformation of her soul as she discovers that forgiveness, of self and others, can be the best remedy. As an inspiring example of what it really means to be called to service, Leonardi shows that it’s never too late to find your spiritual path and life’s purpose.

Chosen as the Hay House Book Club Pick, February 2013.


Chapter 3: A Field of Angels: Shanksville

As I looked across the immense space of the scene, I saw a shimmer of light by my left shoulder. The light flickered at first, playing against that of the sun. The light reminded me of my first trip to Ireland, when I had seen a large school of salmon swimming very close to the water’s edge. The light of their scales had merged with that of the sun and sent brilliant crystal shimmers across my view. I remember that the light was mesmerizing, and many of us stood witness to it. It was an amazing moment for me.

On the field, the shimmer of light began to grow off to my left until it was almost blinding. I turned and looked at it more directly, and it began to evolve into a foggy white mist. The mist then began to move, swirling in patterns of spectacular white light. Then, before my eyes, the mist took shape. To my amazement, there at the left of the crash site stood what appeared to be a legion of angels.

There were hundreds of them, standing in columns— a field of angels, emerging from the realms of the mist. I recognized them as archangels, wings arched up toward the sky. Each of them appeared to be dressed in warrior garments, like a legion of Roman centurions from centuries past. They were standing vigil, gazing at the surrounding perimeter. The looks on their faces were intense yet gentle. Calming. They stood like soldiers guarding their ground in preparation for the next battle. They appeared ready to receive the next command from their leader. And they clearly had a leader—for he stood majestically in front of them all.

This archangel stood with confidence, radiance, and an aura of leadership. The saber in his hand angled toward the ground in resting mode. I knew instantly this had to be Michael, for in my Catholic upbringing the Archangel Michael had always been depicted as the warrior. He was also known as the guardian of law enforcement.

These celestial beings were so numerous that their features began to blend together. The pureness of their beauty—and the radiant light surrounding them—was overwhelming to me. Each was unique, and all were beautiful. I marveled at the image of these lovely creatures. They looked just as they were depicted in the frescoes Michel- angelo painted in the Sistine Chapel some 500 years ago.

As I gazed at the angels, my mind slowed its pace. I paused at each new motion they made. With each movement, a detail was forever etched in my memory. It was as if there were a sketch artist inside my mind’s eye preserving all the minute details with an indelible pen.

Chapter 6: A Mother’s Agony

The mother’s demeanor instantly changed. I watched her carefully as her facial features became distorted. She rose from her chair and began to scream. The tears poured from her eyes. The extent of her agony was apparent to all. It could be heard in the tone of her voice and the pitch of the scream; it could be seen in her body language. She was distraught not only about losing her son but also about having no body to bury. There were no remains to place in the earth to which she could pay homage. She could not touch the face of her child one last time or whisper a final good-bye. Her little boy was gone, and there would be no final send-off, no ritualized ceremony to provide a blessing as his soul left its earthly domain.

I asked the interpreter if it was an appropriate gesture in Asian culture to console the grieving mother. I did not wish to add another insult to her already damaged heart. The translator indicated it was permissible to show emotion and concern. I stood up from the chair and reached for her. She fell into my arms and sobbed. We walked onto the outside patio and wept. As her tears merged with mine, I realized that no common language was necessary. Even though we did not speak the same tongue, we each instantly knew the other’s heart. We shared a patois understood by all mothers. It is the language of love—the dance of life between a mother and her child. Her maternal heart synchronized with mine.

Chapter 12: A Reflection of Mary Magdalene

All my life I had a special relationship with the two Mary’s of the Bible—Mary the Mother of God, and Mary Magdalene. I had prayed to Mary our mother of perpetual help since the birth of my daughter. On the morning following her birth, my mom gave me my first prayer book honoring the Mother. From that moment on, I dedicated my heart to Mary and prayed to our lady on a daily basis. Since I built the grotto in my backyard, I’ve knelt in prayer to her every single day. Each day I bend down to bid her a good morning and a good night. As I open the blinds, I say to her statue, “Good morning, my beloved mother and friend.”

These two Mary’s, each with her unique lifestyle, shared the love of a man. One shared Jesus’ life as his mother, and the other shared it as his devoted colleague and friend. One of them was pure and chaste and the other was free-spirited and worldly. As a woman, I reflect the traits of both. My inner soul reflects the purity of Mary’s love for her son. Both of us welcomed a child into our lives at a young age. We share the knowledge of motherhood and its bond to the universal energy.

My humanity also reflects the imperfection of a woman. I was and still am a woman who has made mistakes in her life. Like Mary Magdalene, I, too, have experienced pain. I have reveled in the shadow of the admiration of men. I have made choices of which I am ashamed, choices that did not inspire me to become a better person. Yet post-9/11, I have chosen a new path—a path of self-forgiveness and enlightenment.

In The Shadow Of A Badge

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Chapter 1: Awakening

As Aubrey Blue reported the details, she couldn’t help but wonder, what did Grace need to say before she departed this Earth? In her years as a hospice nurse, Aubrey Blue had learned most of her terminal patients had words to share with loved ones before dying. At this point, all she knew for certain was that these pronouncements were an important rite of passage for every patient she had nursed. Grace’s stirrings this morning indicated that something was causing her great unrest.

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